I think all the time.
But I always ask myself.
What if I would have done things differently when I was younger.
Like not be scared of pursuing music in my one band that got semi-noticed.
Where would I be now?
Probably not writing this blog.
Or at least a more interesting one.
Why hello back seat.
I see we meet again.
Dealing with my issues while being straight edge is difficult.
It’s a fight everyday.
Gotta stay true. I know it will pay off more in the end.
Sometimes I question if I am lucky to be me or not.
I’ve had really great times in my life (like now)
And I’ve had really awful.
(Like a year ago)
I know everyone goes through it. It’s part of life.
But I guess it’s better than having AIDS in a 3rd world country.
You went too far.
Let me see you in person.
I’ll go back to prison.
I ain’t scared.
Why can’t my career be getting tattoos and being generally awesome.
I get paid to show up and be that guy.
All I would have to do would be myself all the time.
I sometimes feel like I’m standing idle while the world is speeding past me. Like I’m not fully living my life like I should be.
I go to work. I hang out with friends, family, and my lovely girlfriend.
That’s all great. But I don’t do anything. I haven’t attempted to change the world. I haven’t tried to make an impact like I want to.
I guess I should try.
Have you ever just looked into someone’s eyes. Not while they are looking at you mind you. While they are doing something. Just look into someone’s eyes while they are busy with something.
You can see the emotion they are feeling at the time. You can almost feel anything they have. The sadness. The happiness. Everything in between.
It shows all your weakness and all your strength. Really mind blowing when you notice it.